It's all 'bout him

My crush. Yes, this post is all 'bout him. I call him Mr MK Lee. Ada lah 2 sebab-musabab dya kenapa saya call dya MK Lee :D Sooo. Here's the story. Saya mula suka dya, actually sejak form 4 lagi. saya ternampak dya d 1 cafe yang my friends and I suka lepak. and on the same day, saya baru sedar rupanya dya pun pegi tempat tuition yang sama dengan saya. Tapi sayangnya tyme 2 saya ada boyfie, so saya kurang bagi perhatian lh sma dya. Plus, dya pemalu orangnya *tyme tuition* and masa 2, saya just minat gitu2 sedja sama dya. not less, not more. Tapi, secara kebetulan, he study in the same college with me. And shockingly, he is best friend to a friend of mine. So, automatically, kami berempat jadi rapat :) Terkejut beruk juga saya bila nampak dya for the 1st tyme. And apa yang menggembirakan saya is, dya yang duluan tegur saya. Asking "kaw kenal saya kh ?" kekok 2 kekok lah tapi buat relax saja. Haha. Last2 jadi rapat juga kami. Selalu outing sama2. And kami tyme outing 2 selalunya berdua dulu p UK. Sementara tunggu the other two datang. So, kami jalan2 lah. And the 1st tyme kami outing 2, beramai2 lah, me and him x sengaja jadi sangat rapat. macam2 lah kami buat. haha. selalu study sama2 and dll. And x taw since when, I started to like him. Saya pun terkejut actly, tapi my friends perasan. balik2 dorang tanya "kaw ada feel bh kan sma dya ?" tapi as usual, saya deny. But my heart say yes *ego* hohoho. And 1 day, ada lah dua orang kawan saya 2 buat sampai c dya mengaku yang dya actly penah suka saya *before he had gf* and dya minta mereka berdua tuk tanya saya, kw pernah suka c MK lee kh ? So saya pun confess jx lh. And we ended up, menyesal. Sebab ? Dari awal x ngaku yang we like each other, until it's too late. Dya sma gf dya pn, actly I really don't know lah apa true story, how they bersama tapi yang saya tw, kami sebenarnya masih suka sama suka. Cuma sekarang after they broke up *not because of me, okay ?!?* saya x taw apa perasaan dya sama sya. Naluri saya mengatakan, he still like me. But, tengok dari reaksi dan action dya, cm ada cm teda. 50-50 gitu. Saya pun confuse. Huhu. Tapi x pa lah, because I already promised myself, once I get out of the college, I'll try to forget my feelings towards him and move on. sebab tyme d college dulu, sangat susah maw buang nye feeling. sebab we both selalu terserempak and outing sama2. so memandangkan now saya dah pindah p kolej lain *bakal pindah p KSKB Kuching*, I've promised myself to move on. Kami berkawan 2 tetap lah berkawan, tapi perasaan nye, akan saya cuba hilangkan :') It's hard but O have to try it. Daripada saya sakit and x dapat apa2, it's better to throw it away, far away from here. And to be honest, dya lah 1st guy yang buat saya rasa cm nye. serius. and dya juga lh the 1st guy that I have the guts to confess my feelings to. Nye serious. Saya x pernah confess perasaan saya sama orang lain dulu, dya lah the one and only, the 1st guy I've ever confessed to. Tapi sekarang, I don't know what will happen to us. Nasihat dari kawan2 and cousy saya, they told me to wait his action. Jangan lagi saya yang bertindak duluan. Kalau dya betul2 mau saya jadi gf dya, biar dya yang datang cari saya. So, I follow their advice and wait. But I don't know, until when should I wait for him.

Mr MK Lee, I hope you read this :')