4th and the last day at Marina Cove Resort

Hey there. Sambung blogging lagi :) Well, it's about my last day at the jamboree. Hari tu, we had a blast ! Really. A blast ! Every peserta yang ikut jambori 2 cm family sudah. Bergambar sama smua org, even hakikatnya, we don't really know each other. Haha. Just taking pictures, sebagai kenangan lah kan. My teammates and I pun take a lot of pictures together. And one thing yang paling penting, I'm gonna miss my admirer. Hahaha. And I know who that guy is. Tp buat der saja. Buat2 x taw yang dia interested. Saya taw dya interested/minat pun, from my friend. She perhatikan gaya dan cara that guy layan me, a bit different than the other. Hee. Well, it's unbelievable though. Tiba-tiba pegi sana, ada orang minat *bangga lah sekejap* hahaha. Anyway, after closing ceremony ended, I once again had a blast with my friends from my college, KML. Sangat2 banyak benda kami buat, and we had fun together. :) And really, saya bersyukur sebab mereka terima saya dalam family PRD dorg sebab my friend, TLX and I, bukan orang yang mempunyai jawatan tetapi terpilih tuk p 2 jambori. Special thanks to Umi Kamsiah N our Mr. President, Syukri sebab pertimbangkan kami tuk di bawa ke Perak :') Then kami pun berjalan ke KL, ikut bas dari KMNS. Dorang bawa kami jalan2 d Tanjung Karang *makan* and then p Setia City Mall. So, kami sampai KLIA at almost 11 pm. Awesome kans. X pernah saya p airport se'awal' itu. Haha. And tyme d airport, macam2 kami buat, round 1 KLIA 2. Sampai me and my friends *yang x tidur pada malam itu* hafal sudah apa benda yang ada dalam KLIA 2. hahaha. and to be honest, saya x tidur selama 15jam. Since 14 Nov, jam 6 petang until 15 Nov, 9 am. Hebat kan ???? Haha. 1st tyme lh saya x tidur. And IDK why saya masih lagi dalam 'hyperactive mode' padahal the day before, kami tidur lewat. Jam 1:30am baru kami smua tidur gara2 maw packing. Huhu. Tapi x pa, pecah jua record. Hee. ^^V. So, that's that. Enjoy the pictures I shown below :)

It's all 'bout him

My crush. Yes, this post is all 'bout him. I call him Mr MK Lee. Ada lah 2 sebab-musabab dya kenapa saya call dya MK Lee :D Sooo. Here's the story. Saya mula suka dya, actually sejak form 4 lagi. saya ternampak dya d 1 cafe yang my friends and I suka lepak. and on the same day, saya baru sedar rupanya dya pun pegi tempat tuition yang sama dengan saya. Tapi sayangnya tyme 2 saya ada boyfie, so saya kurang bagi perhatian lh sma dya. Plus, dya pemalu orangnya *tyme tuition* and masa 2, saya just minat gitu2 sedja sama dya. not less, not more. Tapi, secara kebetulan, he study in the same college with me. And shockingly, he is best friend to a friend of mine. So, automatically, kami berempat jadi rapat :) Terkejut beruk juga saya bila nampak dya for the 1st tyme. And apa yang menggembirakan saya is, dya yang duluan tegur saya. Asking "kaw kenal saya kh ?" kekok 2 kekok lah tapi buat relax saja. Haha. Last2 jadi rapat juga kami. Selalu outing sama2. And kami tyme outing 2 selalunya berdua dulu p UK. Sementara tunggu the other two datang. So, kami jalan2 lah. And the 1st tyme kami outing 2, beramai2 lah, me and him x sengaja jadi sangat rapat. macam2 lah kami buat. haha. selalu study sama2 and dll. And x taw since when, I started to like him. Saya pun terkejut actly, tapi my friends perasan. balik2 dorang tanya "kaw ada feel bh kan sma dya ?" tapi as usual, saya deny. But my heart say yes *ego* hohoho. And 1 day, ada lah dua orang kawan saya 2 buat sampai c dya mengaku yang dya actly penah suka saya *before he had gf* and dya minta mereka berdua tuk tanya saya, kw pernah suka c MK lee kh ? So saya pun confess jx lh. And we ended up, menyesal. Sebab ? Dari awal x ngaku yang we like each other, until it's too late. Dya sma gf dya pn, actly I really don't know lah apa true story, how they bersama tapi yang saya tw, kami sebenarnya masih suka sama suka. Cuma sekarang after they broke up *not because of me, okay ?!?* saya x taw apa perasaan dya sama sya. Naluri saya mengatakan, he still like me. But, tengok dari reaksi dan action dya, cm ada cm teda. 50-50 gitu. Saya pun confuse. Huhu. Tapi x pa lah, because I already promised myself, once I get out of the college, I'll try to forget my feelings towards him and move on. sebab tyme d college dulu, sangat susah maw buang nye feeling. sebab we both selalu terserempak and outing sama2. so memandangkan now saya dah pindah p kolej lain *bakal pindah p KSKB Kuching*, I've promised myself to move on. Kami berkawan 2 tetap lah berkawan, tapi perasaan nye, akan saya cuba hilangkan :') It's hard but O have to try it. Daripada saya sakit and x dapat apa2, it's better to throw it away, far away from here. And to be honest, dya lah 1st guy yang buat saya rasa cm nye. serius. and dya juga lh the 1st guy that I have the guts to confess my feelings to. Nye serious. Saya x pernah confess perasaan saya sama orang lain dulu, dya lah the one and only, the 1st guy I've ever confessed to. Tapi sekarang, I don't know what will happen to us. Nasihat dari kawan2 and cousy saya, they told me to wait his action. Jangan lagi saya yang bertindak duluan. Kalau dya betul2 mau saya jadi gf dya, biar dya yang datang cari saya. So, I follow their advice and wait. But I don't know, until when should I wait for him.

Mr MK Lee, I hope you read this :')

3rd day at Marina Cove

Hey people. I'm back :) Again, telling you 'bout my day at Marina Cove Resort, Perak. 3rd day... Well, just the same as before, my day was filled with exciting new knowledge and experience. A whole lot of 'ceramah' session. And in the evening, shockingly we have a cultural night. It's the first time they are making the cultural night for the PRD jamboree. SO, we were happy for it. And for my team, we choose 'pentomen' where 2 people are reading the script and the others are acting silently. It's a fun night but honestly, very tiring. We end the night VERY late, almost 12:30.And we had to pack at this time. Can you even imagine our condition !?! We were like ZOMBIES packing our own stuff and sleep at 1 am. Awesome, huh ? And we were told that the next morning, we have to dress formally, from top to bottom and bring our enormous luggage to the hall that's WAY far from apartment. huhu. 

 Do look at our pictures below : 

2nd day at Marina Cove Resort

2nd day start with me n izyan had a very hard time waking up. alarm masing2 bbunyi namun both x juga mw bgun2. hahaha. last2 izyan dlu bgun n p mndi bru sya. alamatnya, x sempat ler solat subuh. kuang2. sdh tu, kmi lg lmbt msuk dewan. pny lh seram 2 keadaan. dlm keadaan kelam kabut bh mencari team sya. then sy nmpk c Ujang cm marah sma sya so I apologizes to him. huhuhu. we start the day with senaman aerobik n tazkirah subuh. masa 2, masing2 masih lg malu with each other. so, we don't talk much. tyme sarapan pn masing2 jln dgn kwn masing2. bkn dgn team mates. after breakfast, I ended up sitting with amie, dari Kolej Matrikulasi Negeri Sembilan. n again, we didn't talk to each other. malu joks sya mw bckp sma dya. bkn pa, tkut dy x faham dgn bhasa saya. huhuhu. tyme 2, kmi ad 1 ceramah Fungsi PRD n bla3. Seriously, masa 2 ngantuk gila2 sya ! Ya ampun. mati2 sya tahan mata, namun diriku tewas n ttidur jg akhirnya. haha. bangun2 ja, sesi 2 sdh mw habis n kmi d beri masa 'bout 20 minit to go n minum pagi (seriously, sepanjang jambori nye, makan sak kerja saya. blh jadi gemuk x lama =.='') n tyme 2, kmi d suruh makan bsma team mate masing2 so start dari sna lh kmi beramah mesra WEO (with each other) haha. best jg sma dorg tu, lucu2. but, as usual lh, we have a bit of a prob = communication bet us. maybe sb sya ad sound trouble sb x dgr pa dorg ckp or dorg x brp fhm bhasa saya. tp kmi x kesah ttg 2. we just keep on communicating. 10:30, smua masuk dwan n sya dduk lh jg sblh c amie. tyme 2, we start to hv the guts to talk to each other. seh. haha. tp ceramah 2 x lama, kmi d suruh jmp dgn fasilitator masing2, so sy jmp dgn madam (which i don't know her name) dari N.S. honestly, spnjg sesi 2, NGANTUK GILA2 sya ! sb tu sya pasif, x bckp langsung. sb sya ngantuk. tp bkn ngantuk sb bosan, ngantuk sb x ckup tidur. bonda ada jg tny, sy okay kh sb dya tkut sy x fhm. sya ckp sya faham. cuma sya pendam lh the real reason why I've becoming a passive kind of girl. nnt teguris pula hati bonda. huhui. after that, lunch (mkn lagi), kmi mkn cepat2 then sy cpat2 blk p bilik. at that tyme, i saw something weird from someone but I ignore it though. sb x pasti lg. balik sak bilik, mcm2 d kc cerita. haha. best juga lh jambori nye. byk kenangan. 2:30 pm, bkumpul lg d dwan, ad sesi ceramah lg. once again, me n amie duduk bsebelahan. tkejut jg but x kesah lh. n kmi bcerita lg lh. tny akan perihal masing2. the detail 2 xpyh lh. pnjg sngt. huhu. after that, ad ceramah ttg komunikasi dr sir azra. tyme 2 lh kmi tw our inner number. dan sya dpt number 6. which is sorg pemimpin yang suka akan $$ =.='' pastu ad lg mnum ptg, ya ampun. maha kenyang kmi dibuatnya. makannnnn sedja. ahaha. at 5:30 (f x silap) ad sukaneka /aktiviti luar. kmi men futsal n bola tmpar. punya lh sy x pndai men dua bnda 2. antam2 sak. tp tyme men futsal, bjya jg sy menjaring kn gol (1) hahaha. ad lh drpd xda kn. haha. bila 2 sukan end, kmi smua kna suruh bkumpul. kpd yg ckup2 13 ahli kump tu, dlh blk, yg lebih kena sruh stay, kna suruh kc kuar 1/2 org ahli kump tuk kc jd cukup2 12/13 ahli. bnd nye blku sb ad group yg kurang org, 10 org sak member dorg. huhu. n group sya pn tmsuk lh yg lebih (14). dlm grup kmi, c fazielah volunteer mw kuar. sad 2 sad tp tpksa jg kn. huhu. bila sdh settle, kmi p dinner lh (again, makan) saya, mia n ain. izyan blk bilik sdh sb group dy cukup 13. hoho. 8:30 pm, kna suruh bkumpul lg. tyme 2 ceramah jg, pengurusan stress. best jg lh sesi kali nye sb tenang btul kepala, stable nye pas tu sesi. ad part urut mngurut lg. hahahaha. 10:30 pm, end. tp kmi dr KML kena suruh bkumpul d tingkat 8. sb kmi kena suruh bt senamrobik pada keesokan harinya. pmulaannya, c syuk mw bwa p bilik dy, meeting d sna. tp bdasarkan rules yg d buat. kmi para girls d larang masuk bilik boys maka we ended up meeting d kaki 5 dpn lift. haha. mcm2 kmi bt. last2 kmi smua suruh stanley sak bt movement, kmi follow. haha. jam 11 smua blk bilik sb p'aturan dy jam 11 xda 1 pn blh brada d luar. masing2 blk bilik lh. tp me, izyan, ain n mia lum lg tdur. cer2 lg dpn tv smbil mnum2 mlm sb lapar. hahahhaa. tp dorg ain n mia tdur awal. cm besa, sy n izyan jd owl mix vampire. tdur lewat. hahaha. sot2 bh kmi. pdhl penat sdh 2 tp tdur lewat jg ^^V


D bwah nye pix2 yg smpat d ambik :))

1st day at Marina Cove Resort, Lumut

Hye thr ppl. Lma sdh x update my blog. Huhu. Just have a story to tell y'all. Recently, saya join Group PRD KML p Lumut, Perak tuk hadir Kursus Kepimpinan PRD @ Jambori PRD KPM 2012/2013. TBH, I'm a bit scared n worried 'bout it cz 1st, sy bkn t'golong dlm kalangan AJK tertinggi. 2nd, this is the 1st tyme to go to such event. So, it's a new experience to me :) But, I'm glad yg team mates sy dr KML smua sporting habis n gila2 ! Like, xpyh lh kw mw cover2 gaya sbenar kw, mw malu2 sma dorg. cm 2. Syukur sgt2. Huhu. So, on the 11th Nov 2012 at 10:35 am, we're take off to KL by Air Asia. Smpai d LCCT 'bout 1pm. So, start d LCCT lh sya start rapat with each n every one of them. N kmi pn start rapat sma Sir Farid, the new chemist lecturer yg mnjadi our pengiring. few minutes later, bus dr KMJ dtg. n the journey begin. nothing fun lh sgt sb dlm bus mna blh bt pa2 kn. haha. n we smpai d perak 8:30 pm n smpai n Marina Cove Resort at 9:30 pm. lewat rite ? haha. masuk2 sak kami dlm dewan, trus smua kenal KML sb baju kmi yg amat menyerlah bwarna Magenta. masuk dlm dewan, to be honest, everyone is clueless with the activity. then ada lg kena bahagi kn kpd few team, n sy masuk dlm kumpulan 3. FYI, sy one n only dr labuan dlm group 2. Ya Allah ! Punya sya janggal dgn dorg. xtw mw ckp pa n mw bt pa sb sy ja yg dr sabah, the one with the weird logat. hhaha. but every one of my team mates are good. mereka smua peramah sngat :D happy to be with them hee. nama2 team mate sya : Amie, Daus, Ujang, Ijat, Faiz, Azim, Me@Shah, Amira, Faziela, Sabrina, Chubi, YY, Mas n Azie. There are 14 of us :) and the activity end at 10:30 n rumet sya c Izyan, Ain n Mia. Syukur lh dpt dorg sb dorg nye gila2 n sporting sgt7 ! sy sma izyan at the same room. gila2 kmi dua, sya siap mandi jam 1 n trus head to 6th floor p iron tudung. tyme 2 pening mw mampus sy, jln pn cm zombie. n we both smpai bilik jam 1:20 am, tdur jam 1:30 am. awesome kn. pdhl suk pagi dy mw bangun awal. hahahha. oh ya. yang dari KML 2 kan, ad 18 org : Syukri, Haffizan, Malven, Stanley, Syahiran, Lee, Anna, Ain, Mia, Izyan, Me@Shahrinah, Mathilda, Jessica, Candytha, Nanot, Anina, Dayang n Zhahirah :)

My Fabulous Life

Olla people. It's been a while since I wrote my last post. Quite busy these days so sorry for the delay :P

Just wanna share 'bout my 'singleness' that already achieve its 1st anniversary yesterday. Haha.

Well, life as a single girl is superb awesome ! You don't have to worry 'bout anything. You can do anything & everything that you want to. & you won't be stressful cause you don't have to fight with your bf. Right. But yet, sometimes you can feel the loneliness, you know. As a student in KML, I've seen lovebirds every day all over the college. You can see them dating in the cafeteria, lecture hall, tutorial class, bus stop and even at the ATM machine. Nice, huh ?

Seeing those 'events' sometimes makes me feel like wanna fall in love again. When I'm at the cafeteria & saw someone dating in front of me, it makes me feel like I wanna drag my friend, Ayas, that always hang-out with me N Karento be my temporary boyfriend. OR I'll drag my classmates and forced them to be my bf for a while. Just because of my jealousy. N sometimes I'll tell Ferris to find me a boyfriend. Quite crazy, isn't it. Haha.

But, I get a hold of myself from doing, finding, dragging and forcing other guy from being my boyfie. Haha.

But, I already get use to my life as a single girl. No text came late at night, No late night phone calls, no arguing, no need to reload my phone all the time. And loads of benefits ^^V

Whatever it is, I'll enjoy my life to the fullest till the end ;)

Happy Mother's Day

As you all can read the title, this post is 'bout mother's day. And today is the day. So, Selamat Hari Ibu Mummy :) Saya selalu bergaduh sama mummy, melawan, buat mummy marah. Sebab because of 1 thing, saya nakal. Xtaw lh tahap nakal saya nye sampai mana, hanya orang sekeliling saya yang taw. What I know, saya nakal, suka buat something yang mummy saya akan marah then jarang tolong mereka d dapur so jangan hairan if saya cakap saya x pandai masak =.= Well, ladies nowadays rata2 x pandai masak, rite :) Apa2 pun, saya berharap 1 day, saya dapat banggakan mummy and baba saya. Well, one of the thing that I can do is have a high mark and pointer at marticulation college. Then if I have the guts and strength, be a doctor. What the hell ?! A doctor is the LAST thing in my mind if we're talking 'bout  ambition.
1. Teacher.
2. Engineer
3. Model
4. Chef
5. Nurse
6. Accountant
7. Doctor

See !?! And this is the truth. Bukan rekaan semata2. So kenapa saya x continue jadi engineer ? Well, jika dibandingkan, saya lagi minat bio daripada fizik. People selalu cakap take the risk, tapi dalam bab pilih antara fizik or bio, I couldn't take the chance of risk. Engineer memang maha banyak duit dya tapi pengorbanan kaw terhadap masa belajar pun setampil dengan gaji yang kaw akan dapat. So I rather choose bio and bio is the one thing yang saya rela belajar. Ehem ! Lari trail sudah == 
Tadi saya beli cake for my mum, which is unexpected by any of my family member. Dorang x sangka saya terfikir maw beli kek, then drive sendiri p ambik. Cz saya x matang. That's why. Terus dorg incredibly shock bila dorg taw yang saya beli 2 kek guna duit belanja saya yang I was suppose to use d matriks. Pastu sejarah dalam hidup saya tadi tika ambik kek, sudah lh hari hujan, saya drive lagi kereta Auto WHICH saya never ever learn to drive it and syukur alhamdulillah, demi ambik kek tuk mummy saya, saya berusaha juga bawa 2 kereta n I manage to do so. I'm awesome. Ahaha ! Sekarang saya berdoa dan berharap moga2 nanti before Father's Day, saya boleh cuti outing so boleh juga saya pegi beli kek tuk baba saya. Amin :) Terus mummy baba saya terharu. Awww. Besar sangat kh perubahan saya nye ? =.=' Apa2 pun, pengorbanan mereka lebih besar dari saya :')


P/s : I love you, mummy and baba :')

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No matter where we go, HOME will be the most comfortable place we're ever been :)

So be happy with every pain that you have cause it's valuable :')

Waiting sucks ! Am I right ?

Silence kills D':

Sometimes, some of us didn't hate their ex. They just say so to made them forget him/her easily-->Facts<--   

  ILY, Baba :')

Learn the past. Not hate or run from them.

Preparation

 Hey guys. Posting lagi. Well, sejak saya x dapat tawaran maktab nye, my mummy x pernah sudah marah2 saya malah dya lagi suruh saya on9. Bulih2 dya p tanya saya tadi, which makes me shock much : '' Adik x download wayang lagi ? '' Woah ! Terus tekejut nye saya. Kalau dulu, selagi inda keluar result maktab, selagi 2 dya pantang tingu muka saya duduk depan lappie lebih dari 2jam sebab dya maw saya khatam 2 buku INSAK. Sekali now, siap menyuruh lagi. Mengulun kh 2 ? X taw lh pula kalau mummy saya sebenarnya maw mengulun. Hohoho ! Okay. Enough. Bukan saya maw huuhaa.huuhaa sal 2. Saya maw cakap sal len kes bhh nye. Hee. LAri trail sudah. ==

Okay, seperti yang dirancangkan oleh mummy saya, suk kami maw p KK tuk beli segala keperluan saya. Terus mummy saya suruh saya kasih list barang2 yang maw dibeli supaya inda lupa. So saya nye, macam2 lhh saya kasih list. Tudung, baju, seluar, kasut and so on. Sampay full bhh half of the paper saya bikin. Dipenuhi oleh list barang2 yang saya perlukan. Kalau bulih, tong gas n segala dapur pun dibeli. Haha ! Sangatt banyak sampai maw fikir pun x terdaya lagi. N bagi kami yang beragama Islam nye, kira wajib tuk beli tudung cz d sana, masa minggu orentasi dan kelas agama wajib pakai tudung. So, dengan itu saya terpaksa memeningkan lagi kepala saya tuk beli tudung. N plus, saya nye jenis orang yg cerewet, msti kaler mw sedondon. Aish ! Awesome tul. Maka paksa lh saya heret parents saya nye kesana kemari suk tuk beli barang. Barang mw dibeli bukan sikit genk. BANYAK ! Blum p oversea, sudah banyak. Ehh ! Labuan 2 oversea lhh 2. Haha ! Kalau sdh pegi negeri oranr, du.uii. X taw lh camna. Makanan memang kalau blh bekarung2 d bawa. Biarpun sudah berplastik2, berkotak2 barang dibeli, tapi belum juga cukup. Pening juga den nak berfikir. Haha ! Awesome lhh student2 yang pegi further study nye. Camna mereka berjaya tuk x membuatkan kepala mereka pening yeah ? Duuuii. So suk saya paksa sediakan mental dan fizikal serta kekuatan otot kaki n tangan nye tuk jalan kehulu kehilir dan angkat barang2. Dan dompet baba n mummy saya pun kena juga ready2 dibuka tutup nye sal banyak tul duit keluar. Hoho ! N nye lagi 1 hal buat saya takut yang amat. sudah banyak duit baba, mummy saya korban tuk saya, apa jadi kalau saya x lulus d matriks nanti ? What will happen kalau saya kena kick out dari sana ? Palis2 jauh2. Mudah2an lh saya x lalai dan x lupa akan tanggungjawab saya dan tujuan sebenar saya p KML 2 nanti. Amin. Readers, doakan saya :)

I have to buy

Awesome ! =.='

Shawl trial

Sesedja try pakai shawl. Cam nye lhh style yg saya akan try pakai nnt d KML :) So kalau terpikat, try lhh urat.. Ahaha ! Getex ;P Bila cakap sal KML, trus teringat plan c akmal n saya yang juga di-joined forces oleh c Shikien that kami sepakat maw escape masa minggu orentasi d sana. Maw berhibur kunuk. Maw tgk movie, jalan2 d mall bla3. Trepp cam d kk kunuk. Sekali ketahuan sana teda pa2. Teda cinema. Shopping mall pun awesome lagi Karamunsing. haha ! Hiburan sana just main bowling n clubbing. So c akmal buat conclusion, kami berhibur @ clubbing sedja lhh d sna. 2 sedja hiburan kami. Demi memenuhi impian maw berhibur 2 bhh. haha ! so bayangkan kami bertiga, student KML yang outing pn mesti pakai superb formal, pegi clubbing. Awesome tak ? Ahahaha ! X mampu otak berfikir keadaan kami yang superb kesian 2 =.=' Baru 2, lum lagi plan berjalan, sudah ketahuan oleh c Uncle Senior. Baru 2 dya bhgian disiplin lagi. Nah ? Camna 2 ? Lum buat plan sdh busted.. Ahaha ! Pastu, kami gegirls -> Karen, Shikien n Me <- plan mw buat appointment sama Datin Maimun sekiranya kami kena block A or B sebab rumours mengata knn sana banyak benda yang suka menganggu. Pndai2 lhh kamu faham sendiri. I xnak explain panjang2. Kiu3 ^^V Awesome tak bakal student KML nye ? Hahaha !

Matriks

 
 Hey y'all.. Sjak keblkgn nye, my friends n I slalu bincang sal matriks and all the preparation that we have to make. And HELL it's too many to do ! And too many rules to follow. 2 xblh nye x blh. Serious kin binggung. Saya plan maw stay matriks and saya plan mw ambik bio. Hell yes, it's a shocking news. Why ttiba maw ambik bio ? Sal fizik susah. X takut adegan bedah-membedah ker ? Don't even talk 'bout it ! Means, takut ler tu. Haha ! Serius saya sangatt2 x suka tgk organ dalaman nye. Darah ? X kesah pun. Biar darah 2 melimpa ruah depan mata, saya just slumber sedja tgk. Tapi jgn sesekali kc tgk saya organ dlman. 2 trus saya rsa loya. Yucks ! N saya x suka bhh tgk org kena bedah nye. Why ? cz saya mesti rsa ngilu n saya rasa cm saya yang kena bedah. Weird ? Agree.. Haha ! Pelik fear saya nye but apa2 pun, I have to take the risk and overcome every one of the fear factor. Cause life is 'bout taking risk. If we don't have the strength to face the risk, then we will never be a successful person n we'll never realize what we're capable of doing at. Adakah saya akan sambung pengajian saya dalam bidang doktor ? Bab 2 saya lum sure. Sekiranya rezeki saya memang menuju ke arah kedoktoran maka saya akan join forces **forces ?!** dengan kawan2 saya, Aen N Tty in becoming a doctor. N to be honest, jadi doctor haiwan adalah cita2 saya masa saya masih kecik tp bila saya sdh sedar akan kelemahan saya, maka saya tukar cita2 saya dari doktor ke cikgu.. haha ! N how 'bout maktab ? saya x dpt 2 tmpt. Xda rezki saya. Kecewa ? Sangat ! Plan B ? Stay matrix lhh. Saya plan mw tunggu panggilan UPU tp parents saya cakap no need lhh cz diploma maw study 2thn baru blh sambung ijazah tp kalau stay matrix, study 1thn sak then kuar trus sambung ijazah. Hrmm.. Btul juga 2. Kelemahan dya d matriks nye, y'all mesti struggle lhh cz rata2 U d M'sia nye sangat demanding akan grade. Even UMS pun, 2 student mst dapat 4flat sekiranya mw sambung kedoktoran. D-I-E jawabnya ! Takut saya nye. Sudah lhh ambik bio, kimia., math n science computer. Bio, kimia ? Gabungan mantap ! Baru dgr nama sdh gerun. Lum lagi ada physic. Tukuii. Naya jok f gnye ! So nampaknya saya kena study lhh nye, ulangkaji balik apa yg sya sudah bljr =.='' N mudah2an lhh, dengan izin Allah S.W.T. saya akan dapat keputusan mantap sana. Maybe saya x ngetop d sch tp maybe saya akan ngetop result saya d matriks. Mana kita tw kn ? :) Pa2 pun, doakan kebaikan untuk saya :)

Once again

 

Aitz.. Tadii kena marah lagi balikk.. Kena marah gara2 ? FB.. Ohh damn ! Penatt sudah saya nye asyik2 kena marah.. Sampai 1 tahap saya deac and now saya kira mw deac balik tp since FB ada lhh system yang bantu saya berbincang perihal matrix maka saya x jadii deac.. Biar FB sekalipun, sosial network org bilang.. Tapi di sana tetap org owez share info penting.. Tp, ya lhh, mereka XTAW akan hal demikian.. Awesome.. And tadii knn, f setakat kena tegur dengan cara baikk tiapa lhh.. Nye segala macam kawin2, tuduh2 saya chatting sedja asal on9 FB pa kes ? Pa cer ? Yang kes orang kawin, jumpa d FB 2 hal mereka lhh.. Hal dorang 2 biar lhh dorg sendiri bhh.. Jangan d kasih sama dengan saya.. Aish.. Sucks nye perasaan okayy !?! Sampaii tuduh2 lagii.. Fikir saya nye desperate maw boiplen sangatt sampaii semua lelaki di layann !?! Teda !! and kamu x taw knn saya xda  buatt g2 ?! Xtaw so buat cara xtaw.. Jan tuduh2 sembarangan.. Sakit aty saya ohh !! Semakin dekat hari saya maw get out of the house pegi study, SEMAKIN GALAKK MEREKA MENYAKIT KNN HATI SAYA ! Awesome, bukan ? Cam x sabar2 sudah nye maw sangatt saya keluar dari nye rumah.. F suk 2 pndaftaran matrix, suk juga lhh saya keluar bhh.. Jngan kamu risau.. X lagii bekurang makanan kamu d rumah nye.. Xda lagii orang p tengah2 malam makan.. Sakit aty nye kena tuduh itu ini.. Even dulu masa saya berchat sma my own couzy pun dicurigai.. Ohh great ! Napa bhh x pandaii pecaya nye ?! Awesome sangatt ohh bila our own mother inda pecaya sama anak dya sendiri.. Apa saya nye ? Anak angkat ? Or unwanted child ? Sudah selalu kena buatt gnye sampaii penat maw mampus sudah saya nye.. Fikir saya suka kena buat gitu ? X kena pecaya then kena tuduh2 benda yang saya xda buatt.. Abg pn 2x5.. Ngam lhh.. Owez tuduh2 org.. Bhh.. Continue on accusing me doing something I didn't do.. Jangan sedja benda 'tuduhan' 2 secara x sengaja jadi fitnah sudah lhh.. 2 saya x tanggung sal mereka yang sendiri maw begitu knn.. Okayy bhh.. Sabar sedja lhh kw k shahr.. X lama lagii kw keluar dari rumah, kasih happy lhh dorg.. Biar dorg kasih sakit hati kw until kw nangis airmata darah pn biarin aja.. Selagi mereka happy.. Okayy ? Kbye :I

Lady with license is here ! :D

 Posting lagi :) Nye kali saya mw brag pasal saya sudah dapat licence P.. Mw dapat nye lesen bukan senang k.. Hampir bangas juga lhh saya tika menunggu giliran.. Makin lama mnunggu makin nervous jadinya and angka giliran saya is 34 out of 50++.. awesome knn ? Sangatt lhh awesome.. Sudah lhh panass, cuaca panass then ramaii lagii orang 2 menunggu so faham2 lhh keadaan bila sudah carbon dioxide terkumpul di satu tempat even tempat 2 terbuka sekali pun.. Fakta akan panass 2 tetap x dapat dinafikan.. Then awal2 sudah kami nampak banyak orang fail, terus down nye perasaan n smngat.. Huhu ! N disebab knn tahap nervous saya yang maha tinggi 2 maka saya secara sngaja or x, maki2 c Pika.. Sorry lhh Pika.. Aku nervous boahh.. :'( N bila tiba giliran saya, nasib saya baikk cz saya dapat kereta jenis baru punya so ada a bit senang ler.. Huhu.. Then sdh turun bukit, pegi parking.. Msa parking 2 lagii spoil.. Saya fikir kan mw pegi parking sebelah bhh **ada dua tmpat parking** rupanya x.. Kena tunggu giliran so di sana lhh saya kena marah2 oleh 2 tutor bertugas sambil mereverse kereta kancil 2.. haha ! Tiba giliran saya, saya masuk lhh 2 tmpat then adjust 2 kereta tp belum mula.. Pasal saya tunggu 2 JPJ bertugas tgk tmpat saya n catit masa saya n thanks kepada calon sblum saya 2, saya lambat mula.. Nth pa lagii yg dya p discuss sama 2 JPJ lady.. N thanks to him juga, saya dipandang dan direnung oleh para tutor bertugas cam dorg maw makan saya.. Awesome ! Pastu tiba giliran saya, gagah nye parking.. N sdh siapp parking bulih2 lupa mw masuk 3P.. P tnya 2 tutor lagii.. Kuyakk ehh ! Ahaha ! That's why org slalu nasihatt, kawal 2 nervous.. :D So masuk, adjust, reverse, mula and berduyun2 doa saya mudah2an saya lulus.. And syukur alhamdulillah, saya LULUS !! Syukur ! So x payah lagii mw restart.. Masa saya, sempat lagii saya tgk.. 
Bukit : 00:23:78 @ 23 saat
Parking : 2minit++
3P : 00:58 @58saat
Bangga juga lhh.. Hee ^^V Then tunggu japp, tiba masanya test d lebuhraya lagii and JPJ yg test saya is the same JPJ yg test c Pika.. Fuhh ! Kena test nye JPJ.. Kena tahan sedja lhh.. Bukan sal kena marah2 tapi kena tanya2.. PEramah mmg peramah n it's nice like that tapii di sana juga kw berfikir akan jawapan kpd soalan dya, di sana juga kw kena focus on the road.. Mmg kena ringan mulut juga lhh sama tu JPJ guy.. Tp syukur lhh dya baikk.. Dya ada gtw saya lagi a bit tips, if saya lupa signal dy sngaja lhh 2 bagi hint : "Kita mw pegi mana nye Rina ? Arah mana ?" Then terus saya teringat mw pasang signal maw pegi laluan B **arah ke kuala penyu**.. Then tyme U-turn.. Dya p cakap lagii : "Rina, slow rina selow.. Matii kita nye karang kalau temasuk parit.. Sluw sluw !!" padahal slow maw mampus jua saya rasa saya bawa 2 kereta tyme U-Turn.. haha ! Tyme maw masuk balik p litar, ada bnyak lori bhh.. Tp peliknya, 2 JPJ guy yang risau, saya lekk sedja.. haha ! overall, mark saya d lebuh raya 19/20.. Same mark as QTI and the mistake that I've done is also the same as QTI --> salah masuk gear.. Hahaha ! ^^V And syukur alhamdulillah, saya lulus semua and akhirnya dapat lesen P :D

Kolej Matrikulasi

 Hey hey hey.. Lama x blogging.. Nye kali post pasal Matriks.. I was suppose to post this story on 25th April but I was busy so I don't have free time to blog 'bout it.. :)

Saya check result kemasukan matriks nye on 1:30 a.m., 25th April.. Tgh2 subuh kay cek result dengan hati yg nervous teramat sangatt.. Seluruh badan begegar.. Eseh.. Metafora.. Haha ! Tpi nervous mmg nervous cz saya takutt sangatt x dapatt masuk.. Dengan penuh berhati2 saya taip IC saya d web semakan tawaran matriks n syukur alhamdulillah saya ditawarkan masuk sana !! Then yang baguss nya saya dapat d Labuan so ada dekat sikit dengan home saya.. **Dekat tah karang.. Mw nek boat jg p cnye.. ==** N lagi 1, labuan is my kampung so x berapa takut if ada apa2 emergency d KML.. Dan tambah best, banyakk kawan2 saya dapat tawaran and terima tuk masuk matriks.. Yes !! Ada juga kawan saya, inda juga malu if kejakunan melanda di sana.. Ahaha ! Well, now saya kena memeningkan kepala otakk saya tuk all the preparation that I must do before going to matriks.. Date pndftrn ? 21 May..Yes, lama lagii tapii parents saya nye sibuk selalu so better prepare awal untuk kebaikan semua pihakk.. Nanti x kelam kabut :)

Baba --> ILY

 

  Hye guys.. Well, I believed all of you have seen the pix above these words so you may get the hint 'bout today's post.. Yes, I'm gonna write tits bits 'bout my father.. Well, it happen this morning where I realise he is the best n the coolest father I ever had.. I didn't entitle him as 'World Best Dad' because in the world, there are loads of Dads.. But I want to entitled him as a Best Dad I Ever Have.. And I don't want anyone to replace him.. Just this morning I realise a very valuable lesson, Dad never abandon us, never for a moment.. Even if there's distance between you, but he will thin 'bout you every second..  Okayy, sambung dengan cerita saya :)

Tadi pagi, saya masih tidur lhh knn, cm besa.. But my dad came to visit me at my room and sit right next to me.. He touches my hand and see a;; the brushes and scars that I made on my hand, when I cut myself last week.. He look it very carefully and touches every single scars on my left hand.. By that, I was awake but I hid my face so my dad won't saw me.. But I've failed and my dad kept asking me question.. "Why did you do this ?", "How and with what did you do this ?", "when does it happen?" and by the time.. I couldn't hold my tears.. One by one, they fall apart.. I just couldn't believe that my baba saw the misery and tense in me, in my eyes.. And not my mum that saw it.. I just can't hold it any longer.. My baba ask me softly, which makes me cries much more 

Baba : With what did you do this ?

Me : Pin

Baba : What pen ? And is there any ink left in your scars ?

My voice were soft so he couldn't hear clearly what I'd say..

Me : No.. Needle..

Baba : Where ?

Me : In this room..

Baba : Why ? are you angry ? Angry for the case **I don't want to talk 'bout the case, thanks :)**

I couldn't answer it, couldn't and don't want to.. Saya just menggeleng.. But my baba still asking me question..

Baba : Stress ? Ada masalah ?
N still, saya menggeleng.. Saya x maw kasih taw apa2 details yang terbuku dalam hati saya nye.. And at that tyme, baba nampak saya nangis..

Baba : Napa nangis nye ? Mesti ada masalah knn ? Share saja ? Kina taw ?

N saya, masih juga menggeleng. Kina is my sister.. N to be honest, although she is my sister, I didn't tell her a damn 'bout my problems.. People always wish to have a brother, sister and being a third child like me.. But to be honest, I rather be the only child in this family than having a brother n sister that don't give a damn care 'bout my emotional.. And being a third child is what they called blissful, cause they can have everything.. For me, it just like a childhood fantasy.. A fantasy that will never be a reality.. Okayy, sambung story..

Baba saya terus tanya saya dan terus minta saya share masalah saya tapii saya x mampu untuk share dan pada masa itu, saya dengar baba saya ttba selesma & sya tw, dya mw nangis sdh 2 & by that, I can't even look him in the face or in the eye.. Saya hanya ttup mata sya tyme dya tengok luka saya 2..Serius saya x sanggup tengok baba sya gitu.. Even sya x ckap apa2 pun, baba sya sudah cm mw nangis, apalg if sya sudah mula buka mulut.. Biar lhh sya tanggung nye masalah dlm hati saya, tnpa ada org taw.. Yang penting mereka semua bahagia w/o knowing it & I'll try to smile n be positive.. Sya sudah janji saya cousy saya c Boboy yg cared much 'bout me, yg sya akan kekal semangatt n stay strong.. N all these tyme, I'll say : "I'm fine" Saya x maw orang risau pasal saya, saya x maw orang sedih pasal saya.. Okayy ? N after that, baba saya balik kaykay n saya salam lhh dya.. Wajib k.. Dan sepanjang 2, saya memohon ampun pada Allah atas setiap dosa yang saya tlh lakukan krn tlh menyusahkn hati baba saya dan saya brdoa agar Allah S.W.T. selamatkan dia dari segala bala. Amin. Dan petang 2, sya masih terfikir2 akan ayat saya 2 n w/o pengetahuan baba, saya janji sama dya yang saya xkan buat begini lagii.. Yes baba.. I promise you, I will never do this stupid this ever again.. I will never hurt myself ever again.. Dan tyme 2 sya simpan lhh ubat d tangan saya dan ttiba mummy saya p marah2 n tuduh saya sembrgn "Napa ? Mw buatt tatu ?" Siap kena cakap ada masalahh entah pa 2.. A bit cam masalah otakk or mentall.. Okayy, tyme 2 membara sudah hati saya.. Sepa x panass kena cakap gtu tp saya keep on being calm.. Istidi kw shahr isstidi.. == Maka sya heran, kenapa baba sya yg nmpk my sadness instead of my mum ? Tapii pa2 pun, I'm proud to be my baba daughter :')

P/S : Cried when writing this post as dad's love are unmeasurable :')

End of story ~

Adegan d KK

1B

Kemarin my parents n I p round2 KK lhh.. Mula2 tu kami p  CP, mummy saya mw p Tamma dan mw p kedai urut kaki.. So mereka p urut kaki for 1 hour n saya pula membawa diri, p kembara solo.. Pada masa 2, there's just 1 n only hope yg I ada, I hope c Pika ada d sana tyme 2.. Inda juga saya kebuduhan inda tw arah bejalan2 round CP n x tw lg apa mw beli.. Last2 saya membawa diri p Fun square.. D sana saya men game lumba kereta.. Mula2 saya beli token rm5.. Lepas tu makin melarat2 sampai beli token rm10.. Lalu duit yang saya waste adalah rm15, men game lumba kereta sedja.. Dan sepanjang saya men game 2 knn, ad 1 kali, ad 1 lelaki nye nth tahap gaban kalii kegatalan dya nye.. P tegur2 saya, buatt2 kenal kunuk.. ''Amoii, pandai men game kereta rupanya..'' Terus kawan2 dya ketawa.. Shyt ! Saya tw lhh saya tyme 2 tengah pakaii dress ! Pastu saya pakai wedge lagi ! In case ada yg x tw, wedge 2 cm high heel :) Tapi tyme men game saya buka lhh 2 wedge.. Menyindir sedja kerja mereka.. Sampai perihal bibir sexy pun mereka ckp okayy..  Dorg cakap segala lipstick nye.. Boahh ! Kin gelii 2 gaya ! Mw sedja saya cakap " Hello ? I pakaii lipbalm okayy..'' Hahaha ! Macam2 lagii mereka cakap sampaii saya p buat adegan jelinging mereka.. Pas saya jeling terus diamm.. Buduh ! N gara2 mereka para lelaki brengsek 2, saya kalah 2 game pasal kereta saya pandu dalam game 2 iksidin ! BS ! Tid gun ! Wuwuwuwu ! Hampir sejam saya men game.. dari jam 11 til 12.. tyme jam 12 kelam kelabut saya belari2 p lif pasal takutt parents call.. haha ! sekali sudah turun lift, turun eskalator, sys saya call, suruh saya p Palm Square, p tengok kedai Cheetah sal mummy saya mw beli tracksuit.. Inda khh pasal2 saya naik balik 2 eskalator **tyme 2 saya d level B, teda lift sana** and naik lagi lift.. Naik turun lift is my life saya bilang.. Sudah lhh nye kaki meronta2 minta rehat pasal sakit jenjalan pakai wedge nye.. Huhu ! Tapi demi nampak chantikk dan trepp hebat, saya terus knn sedja gaya jalan modelling saya nye.. Ahahaha ! Sudah siapp mummy saya berurut, turun lagi eskalator.. Maw p makan.. Anyunyu.. Sdh siap makan, naikk lagi eskalator, naikk lagi lift.. Naik muakk jg lhh.. Haha ! Then p beli barang.. Sudah siapp everything.. P 1B lagii.. You all tw juga knn 1B ? 1 Borneo Hypermall,in case kamu lupa :) Lucu juga lhh bila diingat balik.. Haha ! parents saya mw p 1B hanya demi mengunjungi tu mesin urut 2.. Ada knn mesin kerusi urut dari Ogawa kalau x silapp, mw bayar RM1, Rm5 or RM10.. Hee.. So parents saya p berurut lhh.. Ngam2 tempat dorg berurut 2 bersebelahan dengan kedai main game.. Lalu saya nye dengan begitu lajaknya pegi tu kedaii game padahal tyme d CP men game sudah 2 selama 1 jam.. N tyme 2 kaki saya juga meronta.ronta minta diurut tapi saya dengan bossy dan arrogant-nya p men game.. Dan benggeng nya, saya x pernah men game bhh d 1B nye.. so saya terbeli token padahal mesin game d sana pakaii kad.. so rugi rm1.. ngok ! haha ! Thanks kepada pekerja sana yg tlh bg informasi yg berguna, saya p lhh sewa 2 kad.. RM14.. dalam 2 ad 10 point.. Sesedja share.. haha ! dan unbelievable knn, mereka tunggu saya d mesin game yg saya mw main 2, mesin game basketball.. demi tunjuk sama saya camna mw main @ kasih masuk card 2.. ohh, i felt like threaten like a royalty.. haha ! terus saya main.. sampai 3, 4 point saya main okayy.. balik2 saya men 2 game.. terus sampai point ke-4, datang lhh pacik se-family nye men game basket jg.. Before mereka mainn, pacik 2 sama anak lelaki dya tengok saya atas bawah okayy dan tengok saya dengan cara memandang rendah.. Fuh ! Punya panass saya tyme 2.. Mentang2 saya punya style tyme 2 bebeh2 yang teramat sangatt, pakaii dress, pakai anting2 panjang, pakai wedge, mereka pandang rendah sama saya ? Puii ! Jangan pandang ku sebelah mata, bilang c Anita Sarawakk.. Lalu bermula lhh aksi2 trepp mereka.. Anak lelaki dya 2, p bawa lg bola 2 jalan, bawa basketball player style lhh.. Buang jauh2 kunuk, trepp 3 point.. Sekali inda masuk.. Mw ketawa jg lhh saya tp saya tyme 2 pokus gila2 so inda kesah sama mereka.. Pastu ad 1 masa 2, saya nonstop masuk sedja 2 bola.. meningu trus mereka 1 family okayy.. Nah ! Apa kw rasa ?! Terus saya duluan lhh stop main daripada mereka.. Game saya duluan abis.. N score saya, 163 if x silapp.. N I admit, mereka terbeliakk tingu 2 score.. wakakakaka ! ad hati mw lawan sama saya, siapp buat muka terip lagii.. Nah, ambik kw ! trus saya jalan dengan muka slumber sedja, muka x tw pa2 nye.. ala2 modelling gitu.. ahahaha ! trus saya p lagi another basketball game n it's harder than the first one.. N kamu tw, 2 pacik se-famili samggup ikut saya k, mw battle juga sama saya, cm tia puas aty nye.. Lalu saya buat muka x tw sedja lhh, kasih masuk card n play.. n sekali lagi anak dya buatt gaya2 basketball player, n saya buatt muka meluatt.. wahahaha ! n dorg pny game duluan abis sal x sampaii score 50 tuk p stage 2.. saya ngam2 50.. terus mereka dgn inda relahati pegi main game lainn.. Alasan : ''jum lhh men game len.. penatt..'' Aiseh !  tadi kemain trepp2 sama saya, sekarang larii pula ? wakakakakaka ! pastu saya men lagii balik game basketball yg first yg senang sikit 2.. tjumpa lagi gegirls.. 3 org dorg n ngam2 tu mesin 4 so sorg satu lhh kami.. girl sebelah saya 2 chubby2.. sepanjang dya main.. fuhh ! bukan main bangga dya dengan setiap score dya.. asal dapat high score lhh maybe bagi dya, dya tepuk tangan maha kuatt okayy ! sekali last2, score dya 146.. dan saya punya score, 171.. Tyme 2, f kamu tingu muka dya, kamu pun mw ketawa okayy.. Muka malu, muka humiliated, n terus2 lari sama kawan dya nye n sepanjang dy beredar p tmpt kawan dya, blik2 dy tgk scoreboard saya.. ambuiii.. ingat saya nye chikaii ? jangan pandang ku sebelah mata okayy ? tapii kawan dya 2, saya tabikk ! score dya 277.. Fuhh ! N saya makin tabikk, dya inda trepp.. Caya lhh kw girl ! Haha ! Then sudah abis men game, we all balik.. 2 sedja :)