Reunion laggiiii. Wwwiiieeee ~~

Reunion lagiii ! Location ? MOK lagii. Haha. Hari nye jumpa c bro Izzat, Zack, Shafar, Jiera and Faizaly. Thanks pada buku c jiera, boss merestui saya tuk keluar malam sambil2 lh sya nye p lepak sana mok sma dorg. Hee. First, sy tgk jam 7lbh sdh. pikir lmbat sgt lh sdh nye, kelam kelabut ambil car key p ambik c zack trs drive p mok. skli smpai, rpnya the first to arrive. ahahahaha ! trs 15 minute gtu smpai sdh dorg shafar sm jiera. mla2 janggal sy rsa, xtw mw cer apa sma dorg tp bila c shafar sm zack buka mulut, start kegilaan dorg. lakak2 lah sudah itu katawa ! ahahaha. pastu 8:30 bru c ijat smpai sm2 c paii. Lewat sikit mereka smpai sb darii kk tuh trs straight p MOK. astaga teharu k ! huhuhu.

 Dari awal smpai abz punya best. ketawa sedja bh keraja kami serius. Thanks to all the boys lh. Trutama c shafar. 1st dya pnya kegilaan kluar terus bising2 sebab kelaparan. Astaga spnjg d mok 2, tebalik2 menyakap nasi guring pataya. hahaha ! f d starbuck buput (cendol house) kan ada makanan berat so blh mkn2 kc kenyang 2 perut tp d mok teda. mknn santai sedja ada. hahaha. then makin kegilaan dya keluar gara2 dya mengantuk. astaga punya lh sandi. tyme 2 enam2 kami sdh bekumpul kan maka mix lh sdh kegilaan c zack, ijat, paii sm c safar. bh sudah kami lakak2 katawa aasssstttaaaagggaaaa betul2 cm cafe 2 kami punya serious ! hahaha. xpeduli sudah sama orang kiri kanan. 1 MOK 2 teda bh sdh suara orang lain selain suara kami. y lain becakap cm bebisik2. kami kalau ada mic, pkai mic lagii aaahh kali becakap siap katawa kuat2. lucu sgt eh ! xblh lupa lh 2 suara c safar cm zumbii sebut nama c jiera gara2 ngantuk smbil buat gaya driving mabuk dya 2. macam2 lagii lah cerita dya p buat sna. serious lucu. senang masuk org bilang and saya serious x nyesal keluar nye malam. sangat7777 best ! I truly had a blast ! macam2 cer dorg, dari saya x faham pigi faham. haha. harap dapat jumpa dorang lagii pasnye . dapat lepak lagi cam tadi tu. cuma 1 sak sayangnya, kami xda ambil gambar bersama sebagai kenangan. huhuhuhuhu. pdahal sya sma c zack awal2 2 sudah imagine r masing2 buat gwiyomi, sorang 1 style, kn kami 6 org mka sorg satu style lh. ahahaha. sot ehh ! pastu td tyme c safar kelaparan tahap gaban kalii aaahhh, lucu sangat sebab sdh siap dya mkn 1 potong waffle, c ijat kasih lari 2 pinggan. trus mula lh 2 bising nth mcm2 dya p cakap tp bila di kasih 2 waffle balik diam sbb makan kn. ahahahahaha ! lucu k lucu ! trus bila c ijat p bli air, actly c ijat suruh saya jaga 2 waffle dr bg dya. trus mati2 c shafar merayu2 mnta 2 waffle sma sya last2 cus 3x tp sya menang. maka dya inda puas aty "aq kalah kw inda bg, jd klau kw manang apa lh kw bt ?" saya jwb "aq tgk jx lh muka kw kelaparan. ahahaha" tp x smpai aty trus sy kasih lh dya. siann bh. haha. then masa mau balikk c zack bilang " bh jum balik. ngantuk btl sdh c shafar sm bliau c shahr mrah krg." c jiera ckp "eya. n kmi nye bdak skulah" trus c shafar n ijat luyar buruk "skolah kh isuk ? staga igt cuti. sbab kami tgh cuti bh skrg nye. kn kami bukan budak skulah" pastu c jiera cakap "bh yalah. kami dua nye isuk sikulah" c ijat balas lagii "oh tu kamu dua. nye kami 1 2 3 4 inda" astaga kejam k kejam. hahahaha XD

Can never forget this night <3

Reunion !

Oya ! saya lupa cer bh saya jumpa c lovies alya n mak jemah a.k.a. Pika. Sy xtw lh dari mna dya mendapat nama mak jemah itu tp nmpknya nama mak jemah 2 sdh melekat di kapala saya. agak sesuai juga lh nem 2 tuk c pka sbb kans bukan apa. masa jumpa tu kan mcm dya bh palllliiinnngggg bnyak potpetpotpet itu ini berbagai2 bermacam gusip cerita hangats. itu ini. dari urang kami tidak kenal pigi buat2 kenal sedja. wahaha ! penuh dengan ketawa riang (eh ?) lakak2 lah mcm kedai starbuck buput 2 kami empunya. hahahaha ! nasib duduk d seeeeennnnaaa uuuujjjjuuuunnnggg . tu bru betiga. balum semua bajumpa. mun samua rasa nya mau buk 1 kedai 2 spy xda org lain dtg sbb mmg 4 sure kami lakak2 mcm 2 kadai kalau bulih rubuh. haha ! well baru bejumpa balik kans. hee. sya rindu sesangat teramat sma dorg ! xtau lagii bila bulih jumpa dan sygnya, adeh. xda capture2 pix. bagusip punya pasal laituu. haha. keychain sya mw kc sma dorg pn lupa mau dibagi. miahahaha ! tidapa lh. nnt jumpa lagii tp rasanya sudah keraja kalii aaahh baru jumpa. sodeh k sodeh. huhuhuhu

Heart skips a beat ?

Seriously truly my heart skips a beat ! Tadi petangs kan sempat lagii saya tidur smpai 5lbh. Malas mw besiap awal knun. Jam 6 bru mndi. Hahaha. Skli tyme ticking dan masa kami mw jmpa sdh smakin dekats kan, andu bh begegar tgn sya ! Nervous tahapp gabann gia ! Nervous cz jumpa besties yg sdh lama x jmpa then sb jumpa c dya. Hihi <3 

Td sya kena ambil d rumah, skali nmpk dya duduk d depan makkk aiiii nervous bagaii lh kenok hati iii. haha. buat muka chillax, masuk kereta, simply say Hi walhal dlm hati andu bh. Naik kalii aahh tekanan drh sy trus gara2 degupan laju ituh. Besalam lagi sama dya. aaasssstttaaaaggggaaa ! Teragak2 bh mau salam tp salam juga then kidum2 sorg2 d belakang. Hahaha. Sejak kebelakangan nye bru kami rapat balik, I admit it, dya pun say the same. Sebab since kami chitchat pakai Line, sjak 2 lh mcm2 cer kami share. mcm dahulu kala masa c KML. Dehh, betapa saya rindu dya. Masa chatting cm x sabar mw jumpa kunun tp siapalah saya d hati dya. TTM maybe ? haha. Pas nye saya mau apply monthly internet package nye demi chatting sma dya sedja. wahahahaha ;P
I admit, chenta saya sama dya berputik kembali. No matter how many time saya nafikan tp hati saya kepala saya tatap cakap YA ! astaga apakah ? Ntah berapa kali sdh jadi cm nye. Dulu msa jd ttm sm c Capital F off knun feel tuk dya, then on blk. Pastu, bila cpl sma c capital N, off lh tu feeling. Tp bila break kan, cakap nemaw couple itu ini. Dan dengan yakinnya saya menyatakan bahawa perasaan saya tuk dya sdh off ! Off K OFF !
Tp bila sy say off kans, sedih nye knun nye aty. Reason ? Unknown =.= Then bila jumpa and chitchat sma dya, aty nye cm inda sabar mau jumpa dya. Yes, kami 4org bjumpa tp paling x sabar saya mau jumpa is Him. Ssseeehhh. Well, he terlalu care sama saya. Masa d KML saya x pernah lupa, asal saya sakit, dya mesti akan tny khabar n mcm2. Masa saya punya mata sakit sebab stupid lens, dya punya risau, sumbody told me lh. Hihihi. Pastu, masa saya quit matrix & mau masuk KSKB, Kuching. It's a very far place so dya risau akan keadaan saya, & pd msa yg sma ad classmate dya d KML akan jd classmate sy d KSKB so dya berabis suruh sy bkwan dgn kwn dya 2 spy sya x lonely2. Sdh saya d sna, kdg2 kami bsms lh jg sblm dy bz mghadap xm PSPM. Bila saya ngadu sma dya pasal kena kacau bagaii, dya simply say "jangan layan. f dya kacau kau lagii, kau kc no aku sma dya. kw ckp lh kw sdh ad bf dan f dorg x caya, kc no aq sma dorg. pndai lh aq ceramah dorg 2 nnti" Okay, where can I find a truly sweet friend like him ? Like I said be4, we cared for each other like lovers but we're not in a relationship. Haha. Mmg nmpk lh dya worry much 'bout me study in a very far place. Far dari apa sya xtw lh pula. Sb study jauh2 sna sorg2, xda org yg sya kenal lagi bila sya p sna, family xda, tu lh kali dya risau. Dya mmg slalu risau pasal saya & sya pn xtw napa. haha. Dya sgt care dan sgt sweet okay. I admit it.

Buduh oh saya ! Knp lh sy sng2 p ganti dya sama lelaki lain msa d Sarawak ? Bfoya2 gituu. Pdhl . . . . . Susah lh mw cakap :'(Menyesal pn teda guna sdh kans bebeh ku shahrinah ? huhuhuhuhuhuhui. Tak pa lh. Yg pnting, kami tetap BFF ;) TTM ? Unsure lh pula sb ttm pn mcm ada. wahaha ! yg pnting itu perasaan saya sm dya tidak padams yet kami still berkawan. Mayb that's better for the both of us :) 

*Near, far, wherever you are, this heart of mine just meant for you*

Meet up, hangout, reunion, loviess

Kiri kunun model kereta. Kanan model Line. Haha

Jyeahh ! Tadi jumpa mereka2 loviess2 saya (Ayas, Ferris, Yen) yang selalu hangout sama saya tyme d matrix. Study bersama, lepak d cafe A, B bersama. Outing bersama. F outing 2, mesti sy sm c ayas duluan p sna UK tunggu c yen, fer n brenda blk dr church. Okay serious saya rindu itu smua. SANGAT ! :'( Masa pn xkan berputar kembali untuk main balik smua kenangan 2. Pastu kalau saya bosan tahap gaban mula lh 2 menyamakk d bilik c Yen. Hahaha. 

Tadi kami jumpa balik setelah lama x jmpa. Mula2 rasa cm okay sedja nye knun. Jumpa sedja bh. Time ticking and when the time for us to meet up getting closer, makin berdegup kechang jantung nye gia ! My heart skips a beat, seriously ! Sekali jumpa tadi mcm janggal2 saya rasa honestly, sebab saya xtaw mau cakap apa sma dorg. Last2 lakak2 katawa sana MOK cm 2 cafe hak milik kami kayy. Biarr lh. Haha. Cer punya cer sampai jam 10 bh sudah. Haha. Mula2 bila x jumpa rasa cm besa sedja, sekali bila sdh jumpa cerita2 ketawa2 seriously saya sedar saya rindu bangett sama dorg ! Sangat ! Sdh lh jarang contact, xda cer apa2 lagi bh. Saya terapat balik sama dorg nye since sya balik Beaufort sak 2 pun sbb sllu bsms bincang bila mau jumpa. Hee. Sekarang masing2 sudah bawa haluan, p belajar sanasini, saya sudah kena sana ujung borneo (Kuching), c yen d tgh borneo (KK), c fer dya ckp dy lupa tmpt stdy dya d mna (apalah. haha) n ayas d ujung semenanjung (ipoh, perak, InsyaAllah). four of us planning ambil medic course pdhl dulu mati2 I nak ambil education course. Takut kenok. Haha. Takpa, rezki masing2 kan ;)

Pa2 pun saya wish sangat pasnye akan jumpa dorg lagi. Tak kesah bila, belum kerja kh sudah kerja kh tgh practical kh asal reunite lagi. Hee ;)

Never forget each other and keep on contacting each other no matter when even though we're just text each other to ask some silly question. <3

 

Friendzone

Hye hello ola mushi2. Bh sudah cukup intro. haha. Today's post pasal c mr crush. well bukan lh bh crush sya, sudah jadi Ex crush. Ex sebab mcm teda bh sudah perasaan sya sma dya semenjak sya break sma Ex sy Mr Capital N tuu. Well, orang bilang "kau takkan jatuh cinta sama orang kedua if kau betul2 chenta sayang sama orang pertama 2 kan ?" tak faham ? pa blh buat lh bebeh. apakan daya. Hahaha. it may sound cruel but that how's the world were. Eh ? entah apa lh ayat sya nye. Ngee

Well hari nye chatting full blast saya sama dya. Happy gilax2 nye sebab tetiba dya add sya d "LINE" pastu say hye lh kenok. Haha. Maka berchat lah kami dari pagi ke petang then malam dya cari saya lagii. Oh my gash ! Tetiba berdegup kenchang lagi bh jantung nye.. Heart skips a beat gittew. Oooppsss. Hahaha ! Nvm that. Tapi saya sama crush saya ada history masa d KML dulu. Masa cuti 2 kan, saya confess bha feeling saya sama dya. Aduhaii hanya Tuhan yang tahu betapa MALLUU nya saya mau buat 2 benda. X pernah k sya confess feel sya sma mna2 lelaki. Ego begitu and prinsip hidup lh kenok, mesti lelaki duluan yang confess sama saya baru saya mau terima dya kunun. Nye pun mau confess setelah d paksa2 oleh couzy2 beloved saya 2. hahaha. lalu saya confess lh, ayat saya 2 saya lupa sdh n yg dy rep pun sya lupa sdh. Tlampau banyak n terlalu fanjangs bha. haha. yg sya igt nye 1 word "i like you too" Okay that one word bikin saya beguling2 di katil sambil peluk c bear2 sambil tekidum2 memanjang. Wakakaka ! Memang senyum sedja lh tgk 2 hp. Ngee~~ Tapi kami x jalinkan apa2 hubungan. We didn't became lover or couple, instead we've became best friends that cared 'bout each other like lovers. Orang akan cakap "sudah confess, knapa x couple terus?" Well ada kesah lain disebalik itu but honestly I prefer to be his best friend rather than being his girlfriend. It may sound stupid but it's worth it. Why ? Cause when both of you became best friends, both of you can be much closer than a lover can be and no secrets between you will be hold. It may be hurt you deeply cause you are just being friend with the guy you love but as time goes by, you will get used to it. Trust me.

Besides, although you and him are lover and you both might be deeply in loved with each other and might be in a long term relationship but once your relationship end, you can't make sure that you both will speak or text to each other like old times. You might not being friends with him anymore. Right ? So , that is why we're not being together.

Anyway, I don't care 'bout it anymore. I like the 'us' right now. Speak and laugh like we've never confessed our feelings towards each other before and can talk all day long 'bout each other experience, 'bout our study place, friends and many more.

To my dearest fellow classmates BC1T4

Behold ! My ex classmates at Labuan Matriculation College a.k.a. KML, BC1T4. Well I never forget the name of my group, rite ? The guy as the center of attention, wearing white shirt, sitting, is our beloved and sporting mentor, our biology lecturer at semester 1. A funny and hardworking lecturer and truly sporting. Haha. Well, saya sedja one and only yang quit dari matrix sebab dapat SPA. Sedih tu semestinya teramat ! Saya quit pun cepat sangat sebab tengah rushing for everything. Preparation tuk p kuching then mau konvoi ambil mummy saya lagii. Macam2 lah. Sedih sangat bila kasih tinggal dorang sebab walaupun sekejap sedja sya sama dorang tp macam2 memory sudah kami buat. Semua classmates saya 1kepala and sporting. Lucu bila teringat macam2 benda yang kami pernah buat sepanjang kelas. Paling saya ingat, 4 orang lelaki tu yang selalu bersama, Watson, Ian, Farid and Pakong. Pakong sma c Farid nye kadang2 mcm x blh terpisah. Stick to each other gittew. Perangai sot2 dorang pun hampir sma jg 2. Haha. Then dorang c liza, sai, jiya, kriss. Mcm2 bnda gila dorang pernah buat and yang lain pun sma. Then muet team member sya c ain, liza J, sma c naniey bh kalau sya x silapp (candidate A,B,C,D), saya paling ingat lah nye ayat "butterfly in my stomach ? bukan setakat butterfly. macam2 insect sudah ada dalam stomach nye" bila nervous mau p test MUET> Haha ! Bila sya igt blk, ketawa sorang2 sedja nye. Haha. I seriously missed all of them. Menyesal kluar tu ada juga sebab x dapat berjuang sma dorang hingga ke penamat . saya quit awal. Saya x dapat berjuang sma2 dorang dalam kelas tu sampai habis matrix so saya minta maaf sma kamu smua.

And sya tak pernah cakap nye sama kamurang. Saya mau minta maaf sama kamu atas setiap kekasaran, kesalahan saya dan kata-kata saya yang boleh buat kamu sakit hati. Sorry sangat2 (macam hari raya pula sya minta maaf bgni) Haha.

Anyway, saya harap, nanti bila kita smua sudah beranjak lebih dewasa, sudah kerja dan masing2 sudah ada gaji, hope kita blh buat reunion and jumpa each other. Tengok perubahan masing-masing. Yang sudah kahwin, ada anak tu sila bawa p reunion tu k. Tidak dilupa juga pada mereka yang sudah bertunang atau yang sudah bergerek pada masa itu, sila lah bwa suami, anak, tunang dan gerek masing2 dan kenalkan pada we all. Ahaha.

Well, maybe some of you dah tak ingat siapa saya tapi takpa, saya sentiasa ingat you all and I will always miss you guys :') 

Dedicated to my fellow ex-classmates of BC1T4 

Story of friendship

Another day, another journey, another adventure and another story written. Apa2 sedja lah . malas sudah mau sepiking ini. haha. well. saya mau kasih cerita pasal Mr Capital K ini. X ingat lah saya ada cerita sudah kh pasal dya blum. tp x kesah lh. ^^

Mr Capital K. Maaf yeah. Saya xmau kasih tau fullname dya nnti ada orang yang kenal dya malu lah sia. Haha. Anyway, begni ceritanya persahabatan kami. Well, it's a story 'bout how our friendship started dan bukannya pasal chenta2 okayy. Soo, begini. Kami hanya kenal dari Instagram and Facebook. Both of us nye seriously xpernah pun bertegur kh apa d social website 2. Kami hanya spam each other sedja. Haha. So 1 day, tetiba dya buat status d FB, I'm here (at KSKB, Kuching) Makk aii punya tekejut saya. To be honest, lbh 3x saya baca location c Mr Capital K tu. Manataw saya salah baca kans, sbab dya itu trainee d KKA and pada masa, ketika dan saat itu all the trainee of KKA suppose to be back to their hometown for practical. Huhu. So I commented on his status, "Oh really ?" Lalu 2-3 minit begitu, dya add wechat sya thru ID sy d Insta lalu berchat lh kamiurang. Malu2 nah gia sia ini mau chat sma dy.  Mna sia kenal kn tp buat2 cool and chillax kunun beeee. Tny itu ini macam sudah lama kenal kunun. Haha. Dya p KSKB @ kolej sya tu sbab ada latihan sukan, dia wakil sarawak dalam sukan volleyball. Lalu begitu lah bermulanya persahabatan kami. Then habis chatting kami sambung texting. Ngee~
2-3 days gitu, saya ada p gym, mw p jugging sma kawan sya. Ngam2 limpas sna volleyball court, ada sya nmpak dya, tp sya x pasti actly itu dya or x sbab tau lh. Xpernah jumpa secara live kan. apa tidaks. hahaha. trs pas sya balik bilik, dya sms sya "org tagap" ahaha sbb sya p men angkat berat kunuk d gym itu =.='' Lalu dya gtaw knun bila dya nmpak saya baru dya men bagus2 knun. Haha. Funny :P

Then pda masa 1st tyme sya p jumpa dya sbb mau kasih ubat kn, tyme tu hnya Tuhan sedja tw betapa nervous nya sya ! Bukan apa tapi saya takut saya salah orang ! Tapi skali tgk ada sorang lelaki dgan kaki yg terseliuh trun dari hostel (dya duduk asrama Busang and mine is asrama Barion which is berdepan sedja. Haha) Lalu sya dengan penuh yakin that guy is c Mr K (sbb dya gtw sya kaki dya terseliuh pas latihan. ahaha) lalu kami berjumpa and bercerita macam2. We talk like we've known each other since kindergarden. Honestly, sya selesa berkawan sama dya and sya pun xtaw kenapa cm tu. Ada certain lelaki bila jumpa sya akan nervour tahap gaban tp bila jumpa dya, nervous 2 mc ada tp at the same time saya comfortable dgn dya :D

So macam2 lagi lah perkara yang lucu happen between us. Sometimes we share stories that happen to us, macam a very close friend nye :D Tp syukur lah sbab itu maknanya dya pun selesa juga berkawan sma saya. And till this day, almost every day we texted each other. X texting, mesti chatting. haha. And he always be there for me bila saya perlu somebody, contoh masa saya ketakutan, or kesedihan or mau share something, dya pasti ada :') Seriously saya terharu sama dya. Honestly, he's a sweet friend :D

I wonder. How can I meet a wonderful, nice, great, understanding, caring, loving, have his own occupation, and have the 'look', every word that I can't fully describe it, kind of guy. Yes, I've met a lot of friends. That is truly nice to me, take care of me, but yet, they still, just stay as my friend. Yes, a of of guy had confessed to me that they want me to be with them. TO be their partner. But after what happen, I've turned into an icy cold princess. I am friendly with each and every one of them but to give them my heart is far from reach. It seriously turned to ice and I felt like a walking zombie, human face but a dead heart. Dead cause I don't have any feelings called 'love' anymore. Lots of girls, when a guy sacrifice a lot to her, care for her a lot, she will immediately fall for him, am I right ? But, I'm not. No matter how hard I tried, how long the time that I have given to him to make me fall for him, I still can't and will never manage to do it. And I can't help it though. Seriously sad with this kind of situation.